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Donut Box [Mar. 28th, 2010|09:36 pm]

Donut Box, originally uploaded by shamp2007.

Donut box is currently on hiatus, as it costs a lot for the server and I haven't written any new ones recently. Something will come up soon, I'm just not sure what.

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Long time no post [Sep. 21st, 2007|01:13 am]
[mood |slagathor]

    What's gone on in guitar bunny's life? I got married, and got a house. In one year I did all those things adults are supposed to do (except have kids, which I could wait another 10 years for). I'm posting now after having my wisdom teeth taken out. It's bloody and all that. I can't remember when I posted last and I don't want to read whatever it was. Being married isn't all that different then being unmarried, except you have all these other family members all of the sudden. I always figured I'd get married and Mary is the ideal chick to get married to, at least for me. But we both get pretty lazy, like college student lazy. The day we got married really was the happiest day of my life, like a Hallmark commercial or something. Eventually I just have to accept that I'm part of the human race and feel all the same things everyone else does. I don't want to but what can I do? Bleed, I guess, as I have 4 gaping holes at the back of my teeth. I finally saw photographic, x-rayic proof that I had 32 teeth like a normal human being and they go and yank 4 of them out. I always tried counting them with my tongue and could never get them to add up right. They're too bumpy. Teeth.
    The house is the weirdest thing to happen to me. I never imagined owning a house. I used to plan on being rich and owning mansions and stuff, but I was never serious about it. One bedroom apartments seemed extravagant to me. Now we have a garage and a basement and all the pipes and tubes that mysteriously snake in and out of the woodwork actually have a direct effect on our livelihood. Things have happened so fast I can't even see a day into the future. I started building a woodshop in the basement, with a table saw and a drillpress, and built a workbench, with the peg board and tools hanging and all that. It's something my uncles always had. One uncle made my cub scout pinewood derby car for me. I spent a lot of time at the woodshop in college, I know that when a finger gets cut off you should look up to see if it got lodged into the drop ceiling, then stick it in your mouth to keep it fresh. Or something like that. My father knew nothing about any kind of tools, except for watches, which he had an odd knack for fixing (he was part Swiss). I remember visiting those uncles houses and just assuming that they were a different race from me, like some sitcom dad who fixed their own car or something. It never crossed my mind that they were dads like my dad, I never thought to compare other dads to mine. It's easy for me to separate my little bubble of a family from the rest of the world like we're in skylab floating above it all. Mom seems like a stranger more and more to me. Maybe that's a part of being married. I always seem to grow away from friends. At least for a while. But I never thought it would happen with me and mom. it's not that we're unfriendly or anything, but we don't seem to speak the same language, or maybe all the things we assumed we knew about each other we forgot. I wonder what CS Lewis would have to say about that? The abhorrence of the ordinary that humans live with. I listen to John Cleese reading 'Screwtape Letters' a lot at work. It was on a 3 disc set that I burned onto my computer's hard drive, which I use like an mp3 player. There are 15 gigs of music and books on there. Like anyone who grew up listening to cassette tapes, I used to have to listen to albums in order. Putting it all on random is pretty liberating for a week or 2. The Beatles and Andrew WK seem to go well together, though Red House Painters needs to have the appropriate lead in to hold attention.
    I've been avoiding everyone. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I've coasted to middle age and here I am in Lansdale. It's not that I meant to do that, but the lonely art life I set out to have when I got out of High School got all messy with people and I got swayed this way and that. Maybe I'm ADD, maybe I lived to be depressed and having a house and responsibilities has woken me up from some kind of malaise. I don't know who I was trying to be before, though i was always trying to pretend to know. I have no idea who I am now. Anyway, here I am. Long ears, stars in the sky, and a guitar that I can only play high notes on.
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revenge against harry potter [Apr. 3rd, 2006|01:07 am]
[mood |hopefuldobby]
[music |yeah yeah yeahs]

I'm just wild about HarryCollapse )
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10:50 AM Embarrassment [Jan. 18th, 2006|07:15 pm]
I never meant to be a workplace nudist...Collapse )
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Give into your hate [Dec. 28th, 2005|01:11 am]
[mood |busyhow about a nice game of chess]
[music |32 Steps - They Might Be Giants (stuck in my head)]



Star Wars Horoscope for Aries




Like many aries, you have demonstrated your penchant for inflicting pain.
You feel you are at the center of the universe and that you must be in control.
You enjoy being a leader... and you find that your aggression and quick temper serve you well.

Star wars character you are most like: The Emperor

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I've been tagged, you've been tagged... [Nov. 11th, 2005|06:43 pm]
[mood |boredBourgeois]
[music |none of these songs.]

Tagged by tlachtga
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to...

1. John Wayne Gacy Jr. - Sufjan Stevens
2. Once Over Twice - X
3. I'm a Wheel - Wilco
4. Silly Love Songs - Red House Painters (who somehow made a ridiculous Paul McCartney song into a sorrowful Neil Young dirge)
5. Do Re Mi - Woody Guthrie
6. Letter From an Occupant - The New Pornographers
7. War - Edwin Starr “king britt mix”

Not much to add... haven't been existing much these days... work has got me down. I'm trying to write a John Henry song about offices, like "he died with a staple remover in his hand" or something.


Tagged: amphoteric, egenerica, fabby, falina, shiu, tv_is_good, and sybil_b, just to see what turns up...

No tag backs!
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new mexico has always hated california, although he knew that arizona wore the pants [Sep. 23rd, 2005|03:15 am]
[mood |calmsmiling from sleepiness]
[music |new pornagraphers and make up]

Stolen from americanrefugee

interests interestsCollapse )

saw katamari damacy 2 on the ps2, tonight. Scarily it knows what date it is. Music is still good. Pill heads are still cute as buttons.

Sang song about lesbians the other night. At a friends studio. Singing makes me want to pass out.
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Hooray! Bush and the vampires won't get their claws on me! (Hopefully) [Sep. 12th, 2005|06:58 pm]
[mood |crazya little psychotic]
[music |The New Pornographers, perhaps better than the Shins...]

The Expatriate
Achtung! You are 38% brainwashworthy, 22% antitolerant, and 9% blindly patriotic

Congratulations! You are not susceptible to brainwashing, your values
and cares extend beyond the borders of your own country, and your Blind
Patriotism does not reach unhealthy levels. If you had been German in the 30s, you would've left the country.




One bad scenario -- as I hypothetically project you back in time -- is
that you just wouldn't have cared one way or the other about Nazism.
Maybe politics don't interest you enough. But the fact that you took
this test means they probably do. I'm gonna give you the benefit of the
doubt.


Did you know that many of the smartest Germans departed prior to the
beginning of World War II, because they knew some evil shit was
brewing? Brain Drain. Many of them were scientists. It is very possible
you could have been one of them.



Conclusion: born and raised in Germany in the early 1930's, you would not have been a Nazi.








The Would You Have Been A Nazi? Test

- it rules -



My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 55% on brainwashworthy
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 28% on antitolerant
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 3% on patriotic
Link: The Would You Have Been a Nazi Test written by jason_bateman on OkCupid Free Online Dating
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oh of course, of course.... [Sep. 3rd, 2005|07:04 pm]
[mood |bouncyKoyaanisqatsi]
[music |here comes my baby-yo la tengo]

yup, that's me.Collapse )
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mumbled apologies, feet staring, etc. etc. hi hi. [Sep. 3rd, 2005|12:24 am]
[mood |blankbraiding my ears.]
[music |Pedro the Lion - Rapture (maybe my favorite song ever)]

Hooray for Poland!Collapse )
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The occasional late night bunny sighting... [Aug. 13th, 2005|03:56 am]
[mood |blankzombie]
[music |fan on high, crickets, chair squeak]

Thought I'd crawl on and say 'peep'.
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foolkiller's comin', gotta try and make my getaway [May. 13th, 2005|08:17 pm]
[mood |blanksynthpop]
[music |Freezepop - Chess King(thanks Ray :))]

Long time no bunny.
Spring has come and bunnys come out to play, I suppose. Only I've been majorly outside-a-phobic recently. I don't know why. Me and tlachtgas' apartment has a bookshelf in every room, so I've been in reading mode. Philip K Dick's Valis I dig special. I'm onto The Divine Invasion and content as a monkey in a tub of jello. Other than that it's been conspiracy theory, crusades, and greek myth books. Also I crashed a car and made a movie. And I'm planning to do bic pen drawings of atari joysticks and lighters. The car would be Bluey, my beloved 1990 Buick Regal. He's been a little under the weather, and has already been involved in a deer run-in that busted a light, but recently I smashed the passenger side windows on a truck parked at my work. It may have been the antidepressant I'm on (Lexapro) which I had just started and was really wearing me out. I had been on it one week at the time of the Bluey incident. It was making me tired and headachy and druggy. In any case, Bluey doesn't look so good. So I think it may be time to retire him. I've been driving tlachtga's Goldie as a replacement. The movie is a 12 minute digital video mini thing written by Bert and staring a couple friends. I usd Premier 6.5 to edit it and it looks ok, but the camera is kind of cheap and the action shots don't look so hot. And I don't want to think about getting the rights to the music yet (we want to enter into film festivals and stuff). I'm sure Stereolab and Low would love to lend their tunes out to a cheap little suburb film. I just thought of the bic drawings today, but they've been slurping around my head for a while. Other stuff has happened, I turned 34, saw Old Boy, ate good seafood, played eq2 and got 741 points on Population Tire on homestarunner.com. Other stuff other stuff. But after reading Philip K Dick for a while you begin to question your memory...
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The eagles. lost. again. [Feb. 7th, 2005|12:46 am]
[mood |blankblinky]
[music |Komm, Gim Mir Deine Hand]

I always wanted to fill out one of these things.Collapse )
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Happy Groundhogs Day! [Feb. 2nd, 2005|08:06 pm]
[mood |crazyeye defect with tongue]
[music |Andrew WK - The Wolf (slightly embarrassing)]

Well, here's a memeCollapse )
Where have I been? What have I been doing? Who am I?Collapse )
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I'm just like that bird [Dec. 17th, 2004|01:33 am]
[mood |blankdial-uppy]
[music |bob dylan, I wish I saw that interveiw with him]

This may be the last thing I type through a dial up connection ever... the phone service here is getting disconnected and I'm moving in with tlachtga, who is broadly banded to the information superhighway. I'm very tired, I've been moving things all week, and still have lots to do. And I threw out my crib. How symbolic is that?
If I had more time, I'd comment on tv_is_good and stregapezs' recent memes about the past year, and mention that I took the norse god quiz and was told that I'm most like the fertility goddess Frigg. That's what I get for my bunny fixation, I guess. Of course I don't have the time.
So the last word I type through my dialup connection will be, "slurry."
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defeat defeat, you don't want to hear about a jazz musician [Dec. 9th, 2004|12:15 am]
What kind of world would it be without donutbox as a lj-account? The old world soon forgotten. Those days are now over... through the magic of tlachtga's fingers and ample computer knowledge, the world of donut box has come to the journal of life. To be compared unfavorably with all the other online cartoons in a completely alien setting. To make people question their meaningless lives. To clutter up the internet pipelines of non-broadband folks with lj-cut free jpegs. Huzzah!
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these colors must mean something. [Nov. 29th, 2004|08:47 pm]
[mood |blankhow you feel.]
[music |popular stuff everybody is listening to.]

      
ghost world is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator


this maybe true... but I certainly wouldn't want Dan Clowes involved in my love life in any capacity.


btw, had a dream last week that I was in a horror movie in which goldfish died at some crazy hotel (I think in Canada). At one point I spent 3 consecutive nights sitting on a balcony next to Bob Dylan. This was after my last post, so it's probably some sort of wish fulfillment and doesn't mean anything or anything. We talked a lot. My lone music question was "Do you get nervous when you tour?" He said "yes."

Also tlachtga and I saw the 1st 2 freaks and geeks episodes the other night. Bliss.
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another bi-monthly candy drop-in. [Nov. 23rd, 2004|12:07 am]
[mood |distressedone million directions]
[music |canary in a coal mine]

be thankful I remembered how to lj-cut...Collapse )
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"Here, the bad guys can win!" - the last action hero (a bad guy, not arnold) [Nov. 3rd, 2004|07:44 pm]
[mood |blanknothing]
[music |handsome family - amelia earhart vs the dancing bear]

During the election on nbc, there was a commercial that featured a smiling man standing in front of an entirely red map of the united states. I wanted to kill someone.
Mary and I had been to Ohio before and I thought there was no way it would vote for Kerry. It wouldn't surprise me if Kerry had lost to write-in 'Eisenhower' votes there, it's so 1950esque... well except for the fact that they don't have any jobs.
Got an e-mail from my birth mother in California, congratulating me on living in a blue state.
I must admit I was somewhat prepared for this. Music sucks these days. TV sucks these days. Art sucks these days. Movies suck these days. Even the commercials suck... before they were cheerful bright little ads using primary colors for our crappy little tvs and they were blissfully unsophisticated. Now every commercial is some computer generated mess of floating images and long legal explanations. Somebody has to like all this schlock. It must be that mess of people that live in almost every state between here and Cali.
I fully expect that there is Karl Rove trickery behind this win. I doubt that Florida was as Bush-loving as we were told if only from the reports I heard about Philadelphia. All sorts of Republican tricks where attempted in Philly (they tried to relocate the polls in tradionally black democrat districts)... tricks that came to light here in a democrat-dominated city, but probably could be more easily employed in a more southerly enviroment. If even a fraction of all the Karl Rove (called "the Architect" by W in his speech today... hmmmm, is that a mason thing or a matrix thing, George?) stories I've heard are true, I can't see how he could've resisted noodling around with our right to vote. Many of these GOPs were in their party during the Nixon years and I think the only lesson they learned from then is "don't get caught". Karl and the boys were seen relaxing around 9pm last night, according to nbc. I know they probably have people at all the polling places, but it was well before votes were even starting to get counted in Ohio. But Kerry conceded so what does it matter. We'll probably not hear anything.
I've been into this band the Handsome Family recently. Their songs are either about death or insanity or drinking. I got it from friends in Ohio (my friend Roger said that he's going to cheer against every Ohio team. I told him that Lebron is the new Kobe) and I'm completely immersed. After a day of moping through the workplace with crazed conspirical thoughts in my head, it calmed me down to hear songs about dying girls cutting off all their hair and that what get's built up will fall down. Stereolab too has a song that brings comfort... if there is a way to build it, there'll be a way to destroy it. Just like there have been worse disasters than 9/11, there were worse times before the Bushes came. And it all has to end someday... right?
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I want to know the same thing we all want to know how's it going to end [Oct. 9th, 2004|01:06 pm]
[mood |blankslurry]
[music |jim white - god was drunk when he made me]

Hello
it's been a while
I've been sick, but I don't have sick time so I've still been at work
Then when I get home I'm too tired to function as a human being
Too tired to get onto livejournal.com
Too tired, even, to type periods
You might say "hey, theres a period in 'livejournal.com', why not pretend that every sentence is a website and drop the 'com' from it, keeping the dot (.)"
And you'd be right .

So what else has been happening? I have a website donutbox up and running. Mary designed it. It will have more donut boxes soon. There are about 330 of them right now. Currently it's just the older ones. They're not always funny. I don't know much about the whole "website" thing.
Currently obsessed about that 'Lost' show (probably because of hobbit Merry's presence) and some Katamori (that spelling is from memory so I have no clue if it's right) video game where you try to roll up all things in existence in a ball to make stars in the sky. Also Jim White, a alternative country singer dude who's depressing and smart and funny, unlike others of his ilk. And the new Tom Waits CD (I haven't gotten the Nick Cave one yet). Also money, this abstract idea of a value system that some people have much of while I do not.

Well, hungry now. I've used Livejournal in different ways. Now it's like a pet that I keep forgetting about. I'm sorry live journal.
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yeah, yeah, candy still exists... [Sep. 19th, 2004|11:28 pm]
[mood |blankwoozy]
[music |the last thing was Nirvana]

I haven't been at an internetable computer in a while, but I had to share this with you. I have certain family members who are members of the dark sideCollapse ). These members of the dark sideCollapse ) somehow got me included on a members of the dark sideCollapse ) e-mail list. And this is what I received:Read more...Collapse )


I got us home from Columbus in 7 and a half hours. It took us 9 to get out there. I don't think I spent 30 minutes in Pennsylvania going under 80 mph.
Much music listening... but fear 'Renaldo & the Loaf'. That's all I can say. Fear them.
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I'm an ocean... a big, fat, up and down ocean [Aug. 24th, 2004|09:46 pm]
[mood |blankblank like a check]
[music |Let's get it on - marvin]

plusses:
-Sex
-Happiness at my job
-seeing old friends
-Learning "These Days" by Nico on the guitar
-Finding a fun mix tape that features "Dueling Banjos" and Curtis Mayfield's "Move on Up" (I love Curtis)
-Mix CD Mary made for me
-16 CD Fellowship of the Ring reading I get to listen to at work (featuring singing)
-Happy memories of Fuli Culi
-Won my second ever game of Quig...um, Geui...er, Gea'... some old Welsh chess-ish game.
-Cheap Jersey gas
-attractive olympians on the tv.

minusses:
-The constant upheavels going on with the Fringe show that many of my friends are a part of
-Family stuff
-Mary's computer is fritzing
-My mom's house that has to be sold.
-My fucking financial situation and the fucking financial fuckers that are constantly fucking with it (most recently... my bank processed my payroll check which I deposited on Friday with my companies name on it as an out of state check which won't clear til Thursday leaving me with 3 dollars available for me to choke on and enough bills to make a life size oragami death star. I take my memory of that bank teller fling her into the Marianas Trench with a 500 pound weight tied to her ankles and yell at her from my hovering helicopter "how's it feel, bitch!")
-I decided to air out my car during a rainstorm this weekend. But...

extra plus:
-it dried out quickly

extra minus:
-but it's still a sucky car that's cost me as much as I paid for it in repairs this year.

extra extra plus:
-I did say I learned "these days" on guitar, right? Just wanted to say that again.
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Wheel in the sky keeps on turnin' [Aug. 20th, 2004|04:54 am]
Quick note to friends out there... still not used to working and not having internet in front of me at every possible moment. I react to change slowly, when it's not something that I'm the cause of. I'm sorry I haven't been responding to posts or posting stuff... eventually I'll figure this life thing out and be like Arjuna, that guy in the Bhagavad Gita who conquered sleep and possibly remembered all of his lives. Maybe I am him, or maybe I'm a reincarnated tree sloth or sea urchin.
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here they come now... chelsea girls... [Aug. 20th, 2004|04:33 am]
[mood |blankslumberishness]
[music |crickets air conditioner thoughts radio waves homeless cats]

happy discoveries:
-Freeze pop (band)
-FLCL "fooley cooley" or "furi curi" whichever (anime show)
-Wilco (band) (ok here's the story behind wilco and me. I always heard them on a certain college station in the philly area - not the college station that plays fugazi and coltrane and fluxus tunes - but the respectable college station with its lyle lovett (believe me I have nothing against lyle, nothing at all) and sarah mcglachlin or whatever her name is. SO I didn't take them seriously. Then hearing the hoopla about yankee hotel foxtrot not being released because it was uncommercial interested me, but then I heard the album and couldn't figure out what the fuss was about. Now I heard their new album and it's actually more like what I expected from the last album. But now that I'm a fan, I realize that the yankee one is the coolest. I know I know you haven't heard from me in a while and now I'm blabbing away like a high school nerdboy, but it's late and this is the only thing I can think of...)
-machete shot in Jaws (film clip) (ok, more of a rediscovery, but it's a really cool shot)
-homestar runner (internet cartoon) (awesomenessful)
-sleep (physical state) (I love sleep. I like my new/old job. And I need money. Someday, those 3 things will be in harmony, living together and having the times of their lives. Probably when I start doing sleep surveys for medical studies or something) (OK, not a discovery in the "I've never known sleep" sense, but soon to be a discovery in the next few seconds)
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I am trying to break your heart [Aug. 14th, 2004|01:38 pm]
[mood |blankI like the name tweedy]
[music |I never listen to music at home. I probably should. Right?]

Howdy! Long time, no candy.
I'm back at my old job with nothing to complain about except...


No internet access.

The netword has some kind of security thing that prevents us from the 21st century because surely we'll download porn and hack into the pentagon or something which would obviously be bad for business. We serfs are not to be trusted. Anyway, that's why I've been MIA for the past 2 or so weeks. Work has been fun, though, but Bert left on Friday to be a stay at home dad for a few months so sadness has returned. Even worse some hipster latched onto us on Bert's last day keeping us from hatching our usual plots. Bert and I went outside for break and before we knew what happened, aforementioned hipster was running up behind us saying "is this what we do for break?" He's a new guy, and I know how awkward it is to be new at a job, but come on! He proceeded to spend the rest of the break talking about how awesome his life is. I suppose he'll be useful as a character in a play or something. When life gives you lemons, make art about it. Most of my old friends from that job are at the other building so now it's kind of lonely, but I have Wilco to keep me company.
Sweet Wilco.

Well, going to go see my baby.
Ciao for now...
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